The count

The official count is...

18 weekends.
30 Wednesday overnights.
4 holidays.
16 days of school vacation.

69 days of missed visits with Nick.
Over a time of 8 months 14 days.



We have family court today, scheduled for all day.  It could go either way.  We could lose him completely.  Or we could be given custody.  Or anything in between, I suppose.

I had a dream night before last that we were suiting up to enter the warzone.  Only we were already severely wounded, bleeding everywhere, a real mess.  Feels pretty accurate today.